The Findhorn foundation experience week is about so much more than i imagined. It is a part of my lifes journey and as such it is not one thing but many unfolding things.
As you well know i like to write and yet there is a deeper sense of writing that lies inside me that i have felt fearful of putting on paper. It is not a darkness but rather a personal feeling of truth that i share with very few people.
On sunday we had a session called inner life sharing with a community elder who was 84 years old. She had a way of being that had each of us expressing our doubts and fears and then she guided each of us individually and the group as a whole was given suggestions of how to proceed. One of the things she advised me was to write from the heart without fear. So each day i have made a committment to that…
Sunday: it is as if i am reflecting on my own life for the very first time. Acknowledging fears located so deeply in my soul that i had convinced myself they did not exist. Such is the nature of inner life sharing.
Sometimes we are gifted a window into someone else’s experience. Their sharing touches a part of us in such a way that it becomes a key. A key that begins the process of unlocking our own experiences. In that moment in the safe space of community each of us is able to speak out loud things we have never felt or been brave enough to say before.
So shines the light of life seen through the eyes of wisdom. Wisdom, hard won. Wisdom that had its birthplace in the fractures created by lived experiences.
A guiding light sent forth from a place of loving respect and knowing. A light that illuminates our journey forward. A light of human kindness, gratefully accepted.
Monday: Food the sustenance of life. Our bodies require it to function well and yet it has become a chore and not a priority for me. Creating a meal for many is a joy yet I have been unable to transfer this emotion to a single meal for me alone.
Today i realized i need to take time to find joy in the food that i create for my own consumption. To start with intent, to tune in to my own needs as i prepare the food. Now in this moment that is the lesson for me. To capture in my heart the joy that i feel in this large kitchen and to reignite it in the preparation for one. Starting from a place of gratitude.
Rain is falling for the first time since i arrived and i am grateful for the sound. This is a place of calm and peace.
On waking this morning i went to Taize singing. Four part harmonies make my heart burst and it was a wonderful sacred experience, one that will be part of each day i am here.On waking this morning i went to Taize singing. Four part harmonies make my heart burst and it was a wonderful sacred experience, one that will be part of each day i am here.
I feel many things and am asking myself many questions. The answers may not be what i want but i feel they are what i need so i feel blessings unfolding around me I feel many things and am asking myself many questions. The answers may not be what i want but i feel they are what i need so i feel blessings unfolding around me.
Permaculture is fascinating and we had a fabulous workshop this evening. Not only was it filled with information, but for this very tired person it was captivating and i coyld have listened for hours. The key thing that has stuck with me are the guiding principles. Interestingly, these same principles can be applied in our daily lives, business and all facets of life.
Before i sleep i am feeling an incredible amount of gratitude to my fellow travellers on this journey of experience week. Who knew we would be so connected and feel the level of trust we have built. I will remember this week with love in my heart.
Tuesday: creating meals in a comunal kitchen is wonderful. As we take the time to express our gratitude for the ingredients and then create the meals in a collaborative way joy abounds. There is an ease and no stress in the kitchen lol so unlike other large kitchens i have been in. Working together we achieve great things as we care for each other.
This afternoon was spent immersed in nature by the river Findhorn.
Words can not explain the beauty of this wonderous place. We were again blessed with wonderful weather. Although we went as a group we all got to spend alone time as we explored not only the forest and river but also our own personal connections to nature. For me this is where i find my personal bliss. Enveloped in the green lushness that tenderly nurtures your own softened inner space in its soft mossy cloak. Sounding like tinkling timbrels, the water of the river washes away your tension. Here in the forest i am at peace with the universe.
Of course there was a moment where i had to put my feet in the water as usual lol.
Tomorrow is another day and this amazing journey will continue. Till then…
Peace and light xxx