November 1 is here…. and the sea is calling my name.

November 1 2015 how did we find ourselves here..

The year has slipped by, time does that when you are not paying attention. It has been a time of events that make me reflect on my mortality. My Dad, who has been my trail blazer, has stumbled this year. Several strokes, heart attack and now more strokes. He is still with us but time now seems to have taken on a new meaning. Fleeting at best. He is his funny storytelling self yet other parts of him seem to be slowing to an almost halt. Time to record some of those epic tales as it will be like capturing a piece of him for ever.

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He taught us all to love the sea. Lights beach was calling my name this morning and for the first time in a while I felt the need to go and walk. To feel the sand beneath my feet and breathe in the salty air that grounds us and stills my racing mind.

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Sea water has a way of sucking out the stress and filling you with a clarity of thought. 5:30am delivers a quiet where few venture onto the beach. Those who do are rewarded with intangible gifts to the soul.

May we all reflect on what is important and what brings us back to being true to ourselves.

Peace and Light.. Ali xxx

My heart is broken but my precious Riley is at rest.

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There have been lots of tears over the last couple of days and I am sure I will shed more before the night is out.

At just after 3pm today my beloved buddy, companion, partner in crime, Riley crossed the rainbow bridge to the other side.

My heart is broken..

Three days ago he was a little unwell so we headed off to the vet..  I thought that he had a bit of bone stuck in his throat. Being a typical golden retriever he vacuumed food rather than chewing it so I just assumed that something had got caught.

Claudia took some bloods and nothing untoward showed up but the rise in temperature and weight loss could not be explained either. So after a couple of shots to bring his temp down we came home and waited to see if it cleared.

Yesterday morning I took Riley back and the temperature was still bubbling so we decided to do some scans to see if he had eaten something at the beach…. Looking for dead fish or some other equally smelly treat that a retriever would love…

It was after lunch when the receptionist called and said I needed to come at 4;30 for a sit down chat with Claudia… Not a good sign.

4:30pm came with and earth shattering discovery. Riley had a huge mass in his stomach, no sign of his liver and about 1/3 lung capacity. Claudia said to me ‘I need to explain how cancer works”  “no you don’t” I replied. What I was looking at on screen was a doggy version of what I had seen before that time it was equally earth shattering!!

We came home with some meds and decisions to make… Sleep was elusive and my heart was aching so deeply I felt hollow inside.

In the end decisions make themselves if you give them time…. One night of watching my best furry friend struggle to get comfortable and struggle to breath was enough.

So today was all about Riley… Levi gave him some love this morning. Fin came and gave my precious puppy some Reiki  then Tan came and shot a series of beautiful photos. Then it was just Riley and me.. curled up talking about beach walks and all the adventures we have had. There were pats and hugs from Aimee, Chelsea and Julie.

Then it was time.

Just after 3pm Claudia, a nurse and I sat on the floor and snuggled with Riley as the green dream gave him the wings to fly over the rainbow bridge to the place where his spirit will run free.

I will be forever grateful for the love of this precious soul who was with me through the thick and thin of over 7 years.

Run free my angel.

We will get to do one last walk together when I scatter your ashes on your favourite beach….

Thank you for blessing me will love, companionship, tenderness, playfulness and joy… My cup has runneth over..

Peace and light Ali xxx

Being followed by a black dog while trying to make today count.

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For a girl who was never a fan of dogs, till I got Riley, I seem to attract them to me.

The black one that was curled up on the mat met me as I exited the back door as if it had always been there. No matter what I did or said or thought it just wouldn’t leave. It followed me as if it owned me draining my energy and my resistance to seeing it.

Meanwhile Riley sat watching me. Day by day he just looked at me with his big eyes ever confident that I would turn my attention back to him. Yet for some inexplicable reason the black dog had me so distracted and detached.

On automatic I do the things that need doing and labour long and hard with the things that need more energy than I feel I have left to give. Still I keep putting one foot in front of the other facing the challenges even if it is somewhat daunting.

Today I awoke and made the decision that it was time to make today count. So I am doing everything with intent today. Getting up Riley looked at me with such expectation that I got dressed and we headed to the beach.

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We walked for the first time in a while and as I walked I tried to suck in all the energy that the pounding waves were spraying in my direction.

By the time I got home I felt the subtle shift in me. So I will continue to have move forward with intent. The black dog has moved off still just sitting in the periphery of my view but moving just the same.

So make today count people.  Love light and intent. Ali xx

Fog nestled in like a sleeping child.

Strange weather approaches from the north. As we await the fallout from tropical cyclone Olwyn the weather ahead of the storm was strangely calm this morning.

I awoke to a still warm morning with clear skies. As I headed out to the beach at 5;15am I was amazed to find that as I headed down into town the whole area was enveloped in an autumnal pea soup fog.

Like some old school scary movie visibility was very low so I moved with caution towards the coast. At the last line of dunes before the beach it cleared and the ocean came into view. Obviously the fog lay between Mt Shadforth and the sea nestled in between the two like a sleeping child.

I love these kinds of mornings for one special reason…

When you head down the beach there is a point of cliff way ahead of you where this fog rolls over the top and down out to sea. Just like the memories of dreams it dissipates slowly but surely. Watching it roll out is a gift of the early morning bestowed upon those of us that get up and get going this early.

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Life is filled with wonderful, surprising, breathtaking moments just like these and for that I am ever grateful.

May your weekend roll gently into a beautiful blessing.. Peace and light Ali xxx

Was that a hobbit I saw disappearing in the undergrowth.

I had an idea this week to go exploring and so it was that I headed out to a spot called Mt Franklin. When I parked my car I was the only person their so I followed the signs to the trail.

There is something really cathartic about being out in the old growth forest among the trees and the silence. Well not exactly silence, as the bird and creature sounds were awesome. The lower section of the climb has a sealed path that winds up and although it is steep it is quite beautiful. I was a little disappointed that the path was sealed but then I realised that it gives access to this spot that some people would never get to experience.

As I rounded the corner in the path I could see a resting station with benches and a sign…. The ascent to the summit is not for the foolhardy it said. There are over 300 steps to the top and if you suffer from illness, high blood pressure, heart condition this is not the climb for you.

Well there are 304 steps to the summit… I counted them all!!!

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But believe me when I say it was worth every pounding heartbeat. The view from the top was spectacular.

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The photos don’t really do it justice but it was a wonderful experience.

I sat atop the granite and breathed the air deeply. The cloud swirled around me as it flowed past. My apple, pistachio nuts and water tasted like a feast. There was do sign of civilisation in any direction. I felt grateful for the experience and to be up there by myself in the peace and calm of it all.

The steps were hard work on the way up but as daunting on the way down due to the steep ladder like sections.

When I got back to the resting station I realised that there was a sign for the Caldyanup Trail that circles the base of the summit. Not one to miss and opportunity I decided that was the way to go next.

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The path led me around the sheer granite on the one side and the old growth forest beneath my feet.

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The smell of the forest floor was amazing and the things growing there were beautiful in their right.

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Fallen trees created windows into the other world.

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Any moment I expected a small hobbit to appear on the trail if only to disappear into the undergrowth before my very eyes.

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At several points the track passed between two towering Karri Trees leaving me feeling small and quite insignificant.

I had set myself the challenge of climbing to the top and yet the day turned into so much more than that. I found myself singing as I wandered down the trail feeling a world away from the day to day things that we let direct our way of being.

Take time to be in nature as it will slow your heartbeat and make you breathe deeply the rare sweet air of another time.

Feeling blessed.

Peace and light Ali xxx

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To get up and to be on the beach in the morning is now something I look forward to everyday. It matters not the weather of the day as just being there walking thinking clearing my mind is all that matters.

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The Giant says he is on the beach for 20 minutes before he is even awake… Such is the life being married to the person who when my eyes open I am on and eager to explore.

The heavy cloud caused the rising sun to look like a volcano in the distance it was magical.

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We walked in the opposite direction to usual and discovered a rock pool amid the rocks.

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There is something mystical about the soft rain that falls and the haze in the distance.

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By the time we leave the beach the cloud is hanging on the local hilltop like a sacred shroud.

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I am so grateful to have now committed to this ritual that brings me calm and balance at the beginning of each day.

May your tomorrow start with calm and balance too.  love and light Ali xx