November 1 is here…. and the sea is calling my name.

November 1 2015 how did we find ourselves here..

The year has slipped by, time does that when you are not paying attention. It has been a time of events that make me reflect on my mortality. My Dad, who has been my trail blazer, has stumbled this year. Several strokes, heart attack and now more strokes. He is still with us but time now seems to have taken on a new meaning. Fleeting at best. He is his funny storytelling self yet other parts of him seem to be slowing to an almost halt. Time to record some of those epic tales as it will be like capturing a piece of him for ever.

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He taught us all to love the sea. Lights beach was calling my name this morning and for the first time in a while I felt the need to go and walk. To feel the sand beneath my feet and breathe in the salty air that grounds us and stills my racing mind.

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Sea water has a way of sucking out the stress and filling you with a clarity of thought. 5:30am delivers a quiet where few venture onto the beach. Those who do are rewarded with intangible gifts to the soul.

May we all reflect on what is important and what brings us back to being true to ourselves.

Peace and Light.. Ali xxx

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My heart is broken but my precious Riley is at rest.

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There have been lots of tears over the last couple of days and I am sure I will shed more before the night is out.

At just after 3pm today my beloved buddy, companion, partner in crime, Riley crossed the rainbow bridge to the other side.

My heart is broken..

Three days ago he was a little unwell so we headed off to the vet..  I thought that he had a bit of bone stuck in his throat. Being a typical golden retriever he vacuumed food rather than chewing it so I just assumed that something had got caught.

Claudia took some bloods and nothing untoward showed up but the rise in temperature and weight loss could not be explained either. So after a couple of shots to bring his temp down we came home and waited to see if it cleared.

Yesterday morning I took Riley back and the temperature was still bubbling so we decided to do some scans to see if he had eaten something at the beach…. Looking for dead fish or some other equally smelly treat that a retriever would love…

It was after lunch when the receptionist called and said I needed to come at 4;30 for a sit down chat with Claudia… Not a good sign.

4:30pm came with and earth shattering discovery. Riley had a huge mass in his stomach, no sign of his liver and about 1/3 lung capacity. Claudia said to me ‘I need to explain how cancer works”  “no you don’t” I replied. What I was looking at on screen was a doggy version of what I had seen before that time it was equally earth shattering!!

We came home with some meds and decisions to make… Sleep was elusive and my heart was aching so deeply I felt hollow inside.

In the end decisions make themselves if you give them time…. One night of watching my best furry friend struggle to get comfortable and struggle to breath was enough.

So today was all about Riley… Levi gave him some love this morning. Fin came and gave my precious puppy some Reiki  then Tan came and shot a series of beautiful photos. Then it was just Riley and me.. curled up talking about beach walks and all the adventures we have had. There were pats and hugs from Aimee, Chelsea and Julie.

Then it was time.

Just after 3pm Claudia, a nurse and I sat on the floor and snuggled with Riley as the green dream gave him the wings to fly over the rainbow bridge to the place where his spirit will run free.

I will be forever grateful for the love of this precious soul who was with me through the thick and thin of over 7 years.

Run free my angel.

We will get to do one last walk together when I scatter your ashes on your favourite beach….

Thank you for blessing me will love, companionship, tenderness, playfulness and joy… My cup has runneth over..

Peace and light Ali xxx

Was that a hobbit I saw disappearing in the undergrowth.

I had an idea this week to go exploring and so it was that I headed out to a spot called Mt Franklin. When I parked my car I was the only person their so I followed the signs to the trail.

There is something really cathartic about being out in the old growth forest among the trees and the silence. Well not exactly silence, as the bird and creature sounds were awesome. The lower section of the climb has a sealed path that winds up and although it is steep it is quite beautiful. I was a little disappointed that the path was sealed but then I realised that it gives access to this spot that some people would never get to experience.

As I rounded the corner in the path I could see a resting station with benches and a sign…. The ascent to the summit is not for the foolhardy it said. There are over 300 steps to the top and if you suffer from illness, high blood pressure, heart condition this is not the climb for you.

Well there are 304 steps to the summit… I counted them all!!!

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But believe me when I say it was worth every pounding heartbeat. The view from the top was spectacular.

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The photos don’t really do it justice but it was a wonderful experience.

I sat atop the granite and breathed the air deeply. The cloud swirled around me as it flowed past. My apple, pistachio nuts and water tasted like a feast. There was do sign of civilisation in any direction. I felt grateful for the experience and to be up there by myself in the peace and calm of it all.

The steps were hard work on the way up but as daunting on the way down due to the steep ladder like sections.

When I got back to the resting station I realised that there was a sign for the Caldyanup Trail that circles the base of the summit. Not one to miss and opportunity I decided that was the way to go next.

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The path led me around the sheer granite on the one side and the old growth forest beneath my feet.

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The smell of the forest floor was amazing and the things growing there were beautiful in their right.

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Fallen trees created windows into the other world.

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Any moment I expected a small hobbit to appear on the trail if only to disappear into the undergrowth before my very eyes.

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At several points the track passed between two towering Karri Trees leaving me feeling small and quite insignificant.

I had set myself the challenge of climbing to the top and yet the day turned into so much more than that. I found myself singing as I wandered down the trail feeling a world away from the day to day things that we let direct our way of being.

Take time to be in nature as it will slow your heartbeat and make you breathe deeply the rare sweet air of another time.

Feeling blessed.

Peace and light Ali xxx

I had chocolate mousse for breakfast and it was AWESOME!!

Have you ever had a moment when you open the fridge looking for breakfast and you think to yourself ohhhhh I know what I want!!!  Then the sensible you kicks in and you push away that yearning and do the sensible grown up thing… Or so you think..

This morning a couple of major things happened.

Firstly I realised that it is time to move my alarm forward 15 minutes to 4:45am as the beach was quite dark when I arrived.

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I still walked in the beautiful cool air and loved every minute of it but decided that for safety I best adjust my timing. The climbing over the rocks in the dark is a little bit risky and although I like a challenge my inner self is saying time to ease up on that one.

The second thing relates to the fridge and to the changes I have made to my life….

Chocolate mousse has always been on my list of things I love however up till recently it was the kind that was full of who knows what, sugar overload hello Cadburys!!

Now I make it clean… Two avocados, four spoons of raw cacao, splash of coconut oil, honey to taste and my personal special ingredient a cap full of pure peppermint oil… Not a naughty ingredient in site…

So this morning I opened the fridge, surveyed the abundance of good things in there, decided I would have chocolate mousse for breakfast… no guilt just nutrient rich deliciousness… And IT WAS AWESOME!!!

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Hoping you are all having a fabulous day…

Chocolaty Love and light Ali xxx

That is how the light gets in….

It is still quite dark in the mornings now when I get up at 4:30am. Riley and I made our way to the beach this morning with the remnants of storm clouds hanging overhead the light was quite amazing.

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As I looked out the words Leonard Cohen’s Anthem came to mind:

The birds they sang
At the break of day
Start again

I heard them say
Don’t dwell on what
Has passed away
Or what is yet to be

Ah the wars they will
Be fought again

The holy dove
She will be caught again
Bought and sold
And bought again
The dove is never free

Ring the bells that still can ring
Forget your perfect offering

There is a crack, a crack in everything
That’s how the light gets in

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We asked for signs
The signs were sent:
The birth betrayed
The marriage spent
Yeah the widowhood
Of every government
Signs for all to see

I can’t run no more
With that lawless crowd
While the killers in high places
Say their prayers out loud

But they’ve summoned up, they’ve summoned up
A thundercloud
And they’re going to hear from me

Ring the bells that still can ring
Forget your perfect offering
There is a crack, a crack in everything
That’s how the light gets in

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You can add up the parts
But you won’t have the sum
You can strike up the march
There is no drum
Every heart, every heart
To love will come
But like a refugee

Ring the bells that still can ring
Forget your perfect offering
There is a crack, a crack in everything
That’s how the light gets in

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Ring the bells that still can ring
Forget your perfect offering
There is a crack, a crack in everything
That’s how the light gets in
That’s how the light gets in
That’s how the light gets in

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I am humbled and inspired by these words that move me each and every time that I hear and feel them. How true it is of life, ‘forget your perfect offering, there is a crack in everything, that is how the light gets in.’

I had the privilege of seeing Leonard Cohen live at an outdoor concert in the company of one of my most treasured friends. It was an evening of memories, music and comradeship with all the other people in that space, in that moment, all sharing the amazing energy of this old man of music. His energy and enthusiasm, and his honesty and humility drew us into the portal of his world for the evening.

As we emerged back out into the world as we knew it the music stayed with us. For some reason these particular words revisit me often. I feel them deep in my being.  These lyrics can mean many things to many people, for me I have memories and experiences that I relate to each verse, sentence and note. I am grateful for those who share their talents with us that we may find our own meaning in their creations.

On this beautiful day as I consider the choices for the next phase of my life’s journey I wish you all rays of light streaming in through the cracks in your life. Let it warm and comfort your heart and brighten your day. Allow the light to illuminate what lies before you and move forward on your path.

Love and light Ali xxx

Walking after a storm… humidity rising… finding the still calm space. 76

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It was one of those spectacular mornings this morning that only happen after some kind of strange weather.  The topical low that was supposed to be a cyclone, way up north, turned into a rain bearing depression and has travelled down the coast with its tendrils reaching all the way to here.

Yesterday got hot and very, very humid… The sky became very dark and then it broke and we got 3mm of very welcome rain.

Thunder and lightning sent poor Riley looking for cover so this morning it was nice for him to be playing on the beach. The Giant, who debated coming to the beach was equally pleased when his feet hit the sand and the cool water came rushing to meet him.

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The salty haze hung heavily over the third rock ledge giving an eerie edge to the view.

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We couldn’t hear any thunder yet out to sea the lightning was flashing to the water with considerable regularity.

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Finally the sun peaked over the escarpment and reflected on the pools on the rock ledge. As beautiful as it was there was an almost instantaneous rise in temperature that made me glad we were already on our way back to the car park.

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The rock bridge from one rock ledge to the other looked wonderful in the strange light.

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I stood in a rock pool and cooled my feet before making the last bit of the trek back to the car. There is something cathartic in the way your whole body responds to having your feet in the sea. It is almost as if the ocean sucks out of you all the cares and woes and calms your very being.

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It is such a privilege to live in a place where this is possible 365 days of the year. My heart slows as does my breathing and when I close my eyes my mind is calm and clear. A day started like this gives me resilience to face all that can come my way. For tha,t and so much more, I am grateful.

May you feel the calm and breathe the deep resonating breath of peace.

Love, light and harmony.  Ali xxx

Reflections on light and life… 75

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On clear days like today there is so much reflecting in the water.

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It got me to thinking about my life and the journey thus far.

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About lessons learnt, the battles with others and with myself.

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All of which I would not change. As all of the good the bad and the ugly have led me to this place on this day and the world is still beautiful.

Feeling immense gratitude for the journey and for the lessons and gifts along the way.

Peace and light Ali xxx