No walk on the beach for this girl today as I felt unwell last night and slept badly.
I am pleased to report that I am back on deck today and although I don’t feel 100% I am good to go as they say. Two years ago I would have been out of action for a few days but not anymore.
It got me thinking about the impact of change in our lives or, more significantly in this moment, change in my life.
I have battled a few medical conditions over the last few years to the point where they impacted on my ability to work and function. I am not anti medical intervention, however when that intervention depletes you of the ability to function there is something not right there. I was travelling with my job and carried a large bag of all kinds of pills and potions, none of which seemed to be of much benefit. The pain and antispasmodic drugs eased the pain and the spasms however I couldn’t see, lost my sense of balance, couldn’t drive and was like a zombie for a couple of days if I had to take them.
For the first time in my life I started having days where I would wake up and wish I hadn’t… YES I felt really low and exhausted and just wanted the world to stop so I could get off.
A few days before I was due to have a medical procedure, that may or may not have eased my situation, I was knee deep in research about the problem. I found no positive blog entries or write ups about this risky procedure and decided it wasn’t for me. I rang, cancelled the appointment and went back to researching.
Prior to this I had started going to yoga as a way of getting my head and body into a better place with it all. I was blessed with a wonderful teacher in Harishakti, she was calm and encouraging and I started to relearn how to relax and slowdown the self talk. The other amazing thing was that as I learnt to do the simple things I would practise them at home and my body eased a little. Going to class gave me new and wonderful perspective. The other wonderful experience was going to Kirtan, if you want to experience joy that is something to try.
The next step I took was to give up working… This was a big thing for me as the Giant would say that I was a woman who lived to work when I should have been working to live…. He turned out to be right on the mark with that one. It took me a while to get past needing to be out and about… Although being unwell helped here almost as if the universe has its own way of making you stop and reassess.
So I weaned myself off of the medication I had been taking for a long time to no avail and headed for a visit with a naturopath. Karen was another gem. She guided me into a change of diet that made a massive impact on my pain levels and my sense of well being. By changing my diet to be alkaline and getting rid of all the rubbish that I had come to depend on as comfort food my whole life changed. Who would have thought that something so logical and simple (why do we not see these things for ourselves?!) could offer up such benefits.
Then I started to swim… Oh no I can hear some of you who know me laughing, but yes the woman who owned bathers that saw the water maybe once in 5 years started swimming on a regular then daily basis.
Then came the big change and almost a year ago today the Giant and I moved from the city to the country. Instead of swimming I now walk the beach almost everyday and those of you who have been reading my blog will already have looked into that window on my life.
The latest addition to this self care program was to go for deep tissue massage once a month. The healing hands of Donna have helped me to release old agonies and move toward a lighter brighter future.
So in two years I have gone from being a person who was in pain (that got to a ten at least once a day), who was stressed and generally unwell to a person with no pain, at all, who is healthier, more relaxed and living life to the full. Yes I am back working long hours but now I make a point of taking a couple of hours a day just for me. So if you visit be prepared as I am up at 4;30am at the beach by 5 then back doing guitar practise by 7am breakfast and at my desk working by 8am.
I have learnt to be kind to and like myself along the way and for that I am very grateful. Anything is possible if you but step out of your comfort zone and try.
Love and light.. Ali xxx